Posts Tagged ‘rambling’

Why do I do this to myself! arg!

December 2, 2008 1 comment

Woot. Post 2 today.

I keep having problems holding me back on writing… mostly these problems nag at me because I want to do everything correctly because I want to publish someday so others can enjoys this world as much as I do.  Prolly self publish, there’s no way anyone is going to publish a series with pirates, magic, anthros, humans, sex, alcoholism, prostitution, anti-religious/political undertones and a mix of all those with each other, let’s just face that fact straight up, yo.

So even if I publish myself, that doesn’t mean I can’t be anal and strive for perfection and try to do everything by-the-book, right?

Last year or so I made a post about trying to learn how to be a better writer.  Sometime between then and now I’ve decided that trying to go by-the-book or even what people like to read is not the way to go.  I would read a pile of “do these” and “don’t do these” tips and go pick up a couple fictions to read and see all those tips trampled. And these are not unheard of authors.

What the fuck am I supposed to do then??

I have considered off and on the perspective of my Q’lanth series.  While Adrian is dominate, I do get a lot of enjoyment jumping around heads.  And I don’t mean every other scene or within scenes.  I love getting to know other characters and how they think and see other things although I suppose I could do all that from Adrian’s perspective.

I think it would suck keeping -only- in Adrian’s head because there’s a lot of adventure going on and there’s a lot of story between the characters and back story (like how Zander and Rayna met, how else am I supposed to do that? “Oh, we met in the library. She was drooling on a map.” I’d loose a TON of words!)

What I’ve been writing might be called a third person subjective.  You experience the story and the current character’s thoughts and feelings and you find out stuff about the story as that character finds things out. I’ve heard the Wheel of Time series is done in the fashion I’m shooting for. I’ve also heard its really hard. I’m not a very good writer (ADMIT IT! I can weave some excellent stories, but writing them? ha!) so to me its not hard. I write what comes to me, if the flow gunks up then I’m doing something wrong or I need a break.

So I’m having some perspective problems to work out and some problems with… I don’t know, mood? Not tone…

What do people here think about a novel that reads like an anime?

And by anime I mean… Cowboy Bebop, Trigun, etc… you get to know the characters/big picture through the series, there’s funny moments and tragic moments, there’s a bad guy in every episode…. I dunno, I always felt everything coming through like I was watching an anime.  I want it to read like that because those shows are so well done and really suck me in.

And… I have more issues with my writing but that’s whats bugging me right now.

I have found one thing to keep in mind whenever I’m feeling lost and desperate:

I have to write what I like.

There’s a lot of stuff I like to read out there and there’s a lot of people that like those various things.  Right?


*ETA* Oh yeah! Another thing that keeps bugging me that I need to stop doing… is repeating information/things the reader already knows throughout the story (via whatever means). This annoys me and I’m sure I don’t know the full extent of this >.<
*ETA… again* I burned off my 2 Celine Dion CDs and listening to them and liking them. Its really soothing music. I don’t have much of that LOL :-p

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The official decision of the Blood Rose Trilogy

Basically, more or less, this is what’s going to happen: I’m starting over. From, more or less, scratch. But it’ll be like writing a story about a movie right after you watched it. For years. And I have my printed up Blood Rose Trilogy (thanks to of course) to use as reference, and to take chunks from.

Yes, I’ll be starting over, but its for the best, I swear.

I’m starting with Rayna’s story on the time line. Everybody’s story is going to be given their own book/series of books. Whatever it takes.

See, Blood Rose, all three books… it was great and wonderful, but everyone’s stories were way intertwined and there was too much going on while at the same time… not ENOUGH was going on.

    Its like untangling a pile of fishing lines and trying to find the right lure for the right pole for the right fisher, so they can get back to fishing somewhere else so they don’t get tangled up again.

Yup, that’s EXACTLY it!

So last night I started with Rayna’s story, from her birth. This is such a great opportunity, because I already know the majority of her story, I know how it “ends” (don’t you DARE quote me on that!)… I basically have to fill in all the gaps that writing the Blood Rose during NaNoWriMo created. This is such a great oppertinity because I can really get detailed now and my writing will be better, and it will not turn into that fishing line tangle scenario again.



is sooo very true.

Don’t let me write anything serious during NaNo again ^-^ This year’s NaNo, I want to write something completely off the wall and wacky, something that I won’t feel the need to go back to at a later time to polish up and make a big deal out of.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad I wrote those three books during NaNo. It was the only time that I could honestly tell people I couldn’t be bothered with anything else… because you really do have to set aside the time to write, or people will take advantage of you when it looks like you’re “doing nothing”. (read that over at absolutewrite’s forums…)

But yeah. I’m happy to actually be writing again and I have that driving force behind me. Yes, I stopped reading through my printed copy of the Blood Rose books because… I kept writing down the same notes, over and over. I couldn’t take it anymore! It really isn’t worth salvaging just on its own. Its fun to read, but if you’re really looking for something satisfying… try Harry Potter.

Or some of Fred’s FF, dammit.

Okay, gotta shut up again.

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Sick ‘n Writing

No, not sick OF writing. Just a little sick or something. I’ve had this odd lump in my throat that has been making eating solids a bit difficult, then I spent a couple days with a rough spot on a tooth rubbing painfully against my tongue. Then I went to the dentist on Monday (FINALLY! woo whoo!) and found out that my teeth ARE as bad as I thought they were. I need several root canals, a few pulled, and a the rest capped. Yeah, every single teeth needs something. Dentures are looking more and more tempting…


And then I’ve felt like I had the flu off and on and I’m verging on anorexia and people won’t shut up about it which is causing me more stress. Not cool. But I think I’ve put a few pounds back on.


I’m feeling more and more confident about this trilogy, and having to basically rewrite the whole damn thing. I was panicky at first, but after a few days of mulling it over, I’m eagerly back into it and I can’t wait to start. First things first: Need to finish editing at LEAST this first book. And I think I’ll join that AbsoluteWrite forum for a little support here and there. And to offer what I have. Which prolly isn’t a whole lot.

And, ohh how I’d love to spend some time in Eugene. I think I mentioned this before, but I think its going to be the only way I can get some true, hardcore editing time in. I just feel like I shouldn’t stray far from home right now, with the way I’ve been feeling.

I also need to look back into finishing my first poetry book. I can NOT make up my mind about what to call it. That’s whats been holding me back, along with the selection. I have a lot of really personal poetry and trying to figure out if I should have that as a separate book or just cram it in with my other assorted poetry. I have a ton of poetry books on my shelf, but they offer no advice. :-/

Sure I have the selection, I know what I want to publish, but I don’t know how to organize it all. One book for every sort of “type” or poem? A dark book, an angst book, etc. Or jam it all together? I’ve looked at some books on before but I can’t remember what I found. I’ll look again.

I guess that’s it for now…

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